Conviction comes with a price...

I've been suffering for far too long. Who do I blame? Others... 'her'... ill-fate... God sometimes... but not myself. But how can it be when it seems that I'm just a victim of circumstances??? It's hard not to blame myself. It takes humility, selflessness... It takes conviction, deep conviction...

A conviction so deep that I fear has come! A conviction that I am to be blamed for my own suffering. What a blow! What a blow to my own ego! What happened to it's not me?! It's just the circumstances that I'm in... :(

I could continue being like this for a long, long time, but it's been far too long! Too long that I've got to put a stop on it! I'm FED UP! I'm @#$@#$@##@ FED UP! I'm finally coming to terms that I'm to be blamed. My past comes to haunt me... All my mistakes... They have suddenly come to an abrupt stop and are pilling up on me!



Thank God there's grace... Grace that enables me to be as human as I am... Grace that says that we're allowed to be human...

BUT, conviction comes with a price. This isn't the end... There're sacrifices and with that comes suffering... BUT with grace, there is HOPE! Hope that I'm finally pointing my feet to the right direction! The direction to the destiny that God has for me! What other choices do I have?! I can't continue being the way I am... I'll end up a loner, beaten and full of regrets!

I'm leaving this life and I'll pull my 'sorry arse' through! I want to change!

'KUDOS' on being INCOMPETENT, HOPELESS, USELESS!

This speaks so much of our Malaysian police force... INCOMPETENT @#$%!


*Taken from thestaronline.com 01Aug06

Wow! 2 students slashed in the same area. 2 down... MORE to go! We, ordinary citizens should mount a man hunt for these pests... catch them, tie them onto the pole... and start slashing 'em body parts... Yea... back to the middle ages! BUT seriously thinking, what are to do to protect ourselves, if those idiots in the force cannot?! They're busy spying on couples and hiding in bushes so they can catch speeding vehicles?! okok... that may be a little unfair to compare to traffic policemen, but are those in the crime department doing any better?!!!!

What are those freaks in the force doing?! 1 case is not enough to require a tighter security in the SAME area?! KUDOS! Another person slashed... ordinary citizens are not allowed to carry weapons? Knives? Guns? I think I'd better arm myself with a Samurai sword the next time I ever venture out on foot! If not, a baseball bat would suffice.